100 word story - oo2. Yare

→ Yare adj.  Quick; agile; lively

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It was a fine sunny day. I was in the meadow behind our house, two hours past midday, reluctantly picking flowers for my mother's mother's day gift. The wind suddenly danced whimsically and for a moment, I was in an infuriating whirlpool of cloth and leaves. While trying to break free of the tangle, I saw her. 

Lustrous golden hair, creamy skin, graceful movements.

It wasn't like a romantic cliche moment or anything. Before I even untangled myself and thought of a possible move, she was already over the hills.

And anyway, I was too tired to run after her. 

100 word story - oo1. Luddite

Luddite n. A person opposed to increased industrialization or new technology, and is often someone who is incompetent when using new technology.

He reaches his feeble hands out, trying to make sense of the flurry of foreign metal and plastic underneath his fingers. He jabs his fingers right to left, up to down, in circles and in squares,  hoping to create some sort of coherent representation of his feelings like everyone else.

There is only a strange cacophony of clacks.

He stabs the keys harder and harder - where is the bright light everyone keeps talking of? There is no sign of light; the room he's in is still as dark as ever.

He scoffs. So much for technology being the enlightenment.

It's that period of time again

Yes it's that depressing period of time again.

The period of time when you just don't want to work at all.

The period of time when all you're feeling is anger, bitterness, regret.

The period of time when your head feels like it's about to burst.

Honestly, I think this year has been the worst. I don't believe I have had as much of these DCs (Depressed Cycle) as I did last year; in fact, I must say, I believe I was more productive last year than this year. Because at least last year, I did all my homework on time, went to Maths club, did much better in Quran class, ate and exercised better etc.

Actually, I've been noticing a sharp decrease in work quality as I get older. It's like... i'm starting to not care anymore? I'm tired of caring? work, staying on top of class, juggling a million billion things... I've been spending my 16 years of life trying to maintain them and now, I feel like they're all crashing right to the ground.

 I'm scared. And yet this false sense of security is instilled in me, soothing my fears, whispering sweet nothings, calming me but really it has done nothing but hindering from becoming productive, the best person I can be each day.

And I'm getting sick of it. I'm annoyed and yet I feel like I'm being held in shackles. I feel like I'm going around in circles, not knowing where to go not knowing how to feel or continue.

I wish time would stop just so I can stop and organize my life.

I wish I could regain all that I've lost.

I wish I would prioritise!!! Understand what needs to be done later and what needs to be done now. I'm hovering around this giant wasteland of things to do but heck I don't know where to start.

Actually that's a lie. I do know which one is important. I jsut don't wnat to do it. I keep lying to myself. Deceiving myself. Why? I haven't the slightest idea.

I don't want another incident like the maths C3 again. That helpless feeling where you don't know what the answer is, the tick tock of the clock suddenly becoming the countdown of your death, that tight feeling around your heart that as mcuh as you try to say you've got it, you don't...

 I vowed to get 100% on C4 but at this rate, I don't know what to do. I need help. I need a shoulder.

Interesting. The first person 9well, being) I thought of first is Allah. Deep in my heart, I know that Allah is testing me, Allah is trying to get me to stop looking towards Dunya and start looking towards Akhirah. Allah is trying to get me t ask HIM for help, not anyone else, not self-help books, websites anything. Ask Allah for help, for forgiveness and do it sincerely. Ask Him for guidance, for ease in this difficult path I'm treading on, for mental, physical and spiritual support.

and yet a few seconds a later a disgusting, filthy part of my mind rejects and rejects and rejects - pushes Allah out of my mind, stops me from reaching my goal, which is so clearly right in front of me, so close, perhaps only a few inches left before I can touch it. Bu this devil of a creature is strong, he has made  medicine to make me weaker and weaker gradually over time, slowly and slowly, so slowly and subtly that I don't realise it and before I know it, I'm no match against him.

I know deep down. But something deep down inside of me is putting every effort to stop it.

I mean look at the sentences above. the part I know: short. The part of the evil creature: great wall of china.

I need help ya Rabb. Please. I need help. I need your guidance. I need to get back on the right path. I know I have a million things to do, but I'm not doing it. What is it that I need to do? What is it that I must do before I can be led back to the right path. ya Allah, I am not very good at asking and requesting verbally, but I hope this writing will get to you. Ya Allah please ease this problem I have give me strength and willpower to fight against the Shaytan, Give me Hidayah, and keep me forever on the straight path. ya Allah make everything I do Barokah for me ya Allah. Help me in my pain ya Allah. I don't know. I'm lost. I feel disoriented and confused. Please listen to my plea ya Allah. I don't know who else to turn to. I turn to my mother, she gives the same basic generic answers.  I turn to my friends, it's the same story or I don't find what I'm looking for. The answers are all with you ya Allah. Please enlighten this poor, desperate servant. Please forgive this servant's sins. ya Allah, please grant me this du'a, if it is best for me InshaAllah.

ya Allah I'm sure you understand my feelings. I'm sure you know what is truly in my heart right now, is it true repentance or not. ya Allah, please, I'm begging you, I need your help.

Sincerely,
your desperate and frightened servant.

Be Happy

Be Happy Be Optimistic Be Truthful Be Generous Be Kind Be Understanding Be Curious Be Creative Be Thoughtful Be Knowledgeable Be Humble Be Focused Be Forgiving Be Considerate Be Responsible Be Persistent Be Real Be Aware Be Sporty Be Affectionate Be Trustworthy Be Heard Be Contributing Be Helpful Be Innovative Be Revolutionary Be Productive Be Talented Be in Control Be Ambitious Be Influential Be Good Be Thankful

BucketList de me

Currently going through that period of time when reluctance and laziness stride across the land in the most revolting and pompous manner.  So here's a bucket list to cheer me up:

In no particular order:

• Go skydiving
• Be able to Hifz Qur'an
• Go to Palestine and help the people there
• Get a PhD
• Become a doctor, world-renowned neuroscience researcher, author, lecturer/teacher/counselor.
• Visit every single continent
• Take a road trip with school friends
• Take a road trip with biffles
• Learn 6 languages fluently: Indonesian (because still not perfect), Javanese, Arabic, French, Chinese and Korean
• Go to the Sherlock Holmes museum in London
• Watch Les Mis as a Broadway musical
• Learn computer coding
• Learn archery
• Visit Al-Aqsa Mosque
• Visit China and the Great Wall
• Learn to play chess
• Solve Rubik's cube(s)
• Learn magic tricks
• Decorate my own room
• Make my own hospital and school
• Learn how to knit
• Learn how to sew
• Learn how to do Arabic Calligraphy
• Take an African Safari
• Have a Happiness Project
• Be a fluent and confident speaker, giving talks about my area of work and Islam in many prestigious places to many people
• Get into Oxford University
• Win a Nobel Prize
• Help shape Indonesia to become a stronger, safer and fairer country, going back to Islam and abandoning western ideals
• Abandon Western Ideals
• Live life the way the Prophet did
• Complete a crossword puzzle in the newspaper
• Write an article in a scientific journal
• Leave a valuable contribution as Sadaqah Jaariyah to the world
• Make a documentary film
• Become financially literate
• Understand Quranic Arabic
• Study Maqasid
• Raise healthy, kids who love for the sake of Allah, who are successful in the Dunya and Akhirah
• Attend a TED talk
• Speak at a TED Talk
• Attend World Cup
• Be good at brainteasers and puzzles
• Wear full-time Abaya
• Learn sign language
• Learn a new word everyday
• Compolete my Writing Challenge
• Win scholarships
• Participate in all kinds of competitions from easy ones to hard ones
• Take part in Giveaways
• collect all the different types of dresses from different cultures all around the world
• Climb a mountain
• Go to Greece and Spain
• Create a family tree
• Ride a Hot air Balloon
• Learn how to juggle
• Get through the Longleat Hedge Maze
• Survive a week without Internet and Technology
• See the Northern Lights
• Visit Mount Rushmore
• Stand in the crown of the Statue of Liberty
• Milk a Cow
• Ride a train across the countryside
• Tour the Neuschwanstein Castle in Germany
• Visit Maldives
• Go to Ferrari world
• Go on a backpacking trip
• Participate in Geocaching
• Work for World Scholar's Cup
• See Niagara falls
• Visit the Amazon Forest
• Ride a Segway
• Learn a Martial Art
• Answer every question Jeopardy or Who wants to be a Millionaire?
• Watch a Figure Skating show
• Ride First class and Business class on a plane
• Go on the top ten train rides of the world
• Participate in a Protest
• Attend a Japanese tea ceremony
• Go on a cruise liner
• See a Solar eclipse
• Visit Japan
• make S'mores
• Go to a world expo
• Do a handstand, cartwheel and other cool gymnastic tricks
• Get down to 54KG
• develop an exercising habit
• Write a letter to yourself for 10 years later
• Create an archive of Indonesia's presidents
• Complete reading the Tafseer of the Quran
• Pray in the state of Khushu

And probably more to come or less to come as i edit this list over and over and over again

oo1. not a life

Day 1 (2/1/2012)
001. Close your eyes briefly. Think of one object in the room and focus on it. Without opening your eyes recall as much detail as you can about it. After 3 minutes or so, open your eyes and write about that object without looking at it.


Among the wild ruins of discarded paper and lonely pens, she stands tall and proud, her small stature diminished by her gentle yet empowering aura. Beady onyx eyes gleam towards the distance, staring at something and nothing at the same time (there is not a trace of a soul infused in the two beads, but they are as real and as alive as a newborn baby's first cry).  A delicate nose rests on top of her pointed face. Two black lines race downwards and leave their separate ways at a crossroad before curving back upwards to embody a small smile, the kind of smile that renders you breathless, the smile you hope will accompany you through hell and back.

Perched on her small head are two furry triangles meant to portray her hearing senses. Normally, they are as still as the remnants after a messy war, but if one were to look closely when a zephyr sweeps in, her ears would tremble a little, fearing the cold would blow her cover.There is a certain beauty in the way her disheveled fur clings tight to her body - it arranges itself like the dancing grass of a meadow during one particularly fine spring day. A bright green ribbon sloppily forms a crooked bow on her short neck. The bleak surroundings do nothing to deter the vivid rose colour she so proudly flaunts. She is not afraid to fight against the gloomy cloud and emerge in the sunshine, nor is she afraid to appear living in an otherwise deceased world. 

She is the embodiment of our souls, the souls desperate to be set free, the souls desperate to remain breathing. But we have succumbed to the monotonous siege attacking us, in the hopes that the army will leave us free and unscathed. And in return, we traded our vibrant and restless souls for a life of safety, of monotony, of death.




♠ oops, this was supposed to be of my pink alpaca but then i'm talking about deaths????????? what is wrong with me????????????
♠ sob sob maybe it's my depressdness sob sob
♣ idt i can do this challenge because my brain already hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!

346 days writing challenge

In an attempt to increase the amount of creative writing pieces in this blog, i hereby present

►The 346 days writing challenge

RULES

→ Everyday, you write one piece of creative writing using a prompt from this website 

→ The piece of writing can be of  any style or any length, unless otherwise stated in the prompt

→ You must state when you will start the challenge and when it should end

→ The prompt number must correspond to its matching challenge day. For example, day 1 of the challenge means you do prompt 1.

→ You have 10 chances to skip a day. This means that on one day, you do not the prompt. If you have missed a day, continue from where you've left off.

→ Each entry must have the prompt and prompt number written out on top, as well as which day of the challenge you're currently on

→ Be as creative as you'd like and Have fun!



►The 346 days writing challenge
Salma - start: 2/01/2013
            - end: 13/12/2013