sometimes i feel like i'm overburdening my mother.
now that she's going back to school, she's had to juggle her maternal duties as well as her schoolwork. not to mention, when dad is away, she has to pick us up, drop us and do everything else that dad can do.
sometimes i'd be selfish thinking: what's wrong with mom, why hasn't she cooked for us like she usually does, how come she doesn't have time for me anymore etc. these past few months, i've been feeling very distant with my mom, sometimes getting really angry at her.
it's been quite a turbulent and hectic week these past few days, with mom's euromoney conference and all. i've also been rather prickly with mom for reasons. i kept thinking she doesn't care about me anymore, she has no time to listen to me etc. but then i stopped and looked back and i thought: Hey, i haven't done that at all with mom. i haven't asked how her day's been. and at that moment i realised how selfish i am and have been these past few months, and for once, i've decided to abandon my wants and needs and decided to ask mom about her day.
and the joy and happiness when she talked about the people at the conference, how humble they were and how much she's gained from it, i felt a sense of pride for my mom. and a sense of regret for how i'm spending my youth. i felt proud that she's working hard to empower herself and become a strong and educated woman. i didn't want to overburden mother anymore.
hence why this morning, i told my mom she didn't have to go to my prize ceremony. i wanted her to have as much time as possible at the conference becoming educated and such.
but lo and behold, amongst the parents today, i saw my mom in blue smiling and taking pictures of me at my prize ceremony.
i wonder, how can anyone be as strong and as selfless as her.
to me, she's a hero.
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